Loving Him In Silence

(NOTE: Honestly, I have nothing to post that is why I'm posting my own-made story. Hahaha)

It has been five years since I had loved this guy. And for five years I keep on asking myself “How did I end up loving him? Was it because of the way he looks at me or because of the way he laughs over some silly things?” I don’t really but I am certain, he fills my heart with great happiness. Somehow, I wanted to tell him that I love him but every time I attempted to do so, I got scared that I might lose him. That’s why I decided to keep this feeling for myself. 


 He was my best friend and at the same time, he was everything I ever wanted. I knew loving him was a huge mistake. But there is nothing I can do about it. 




 I could still recall the first time we met. It was my first day in high school. I entered the room then there was a guy chatting so loud. It was unusual for a guy to talk that much and to laugh as if he’s the only person left in the world. He had a fair complexion and a pair of beautiful brown eyes. At first, I didn’t like him for he was a bully. Taunting my classmates, including me, became his pastime and to some extent, it irritated me a lot! I just hated him so much. Sometimes, I would write at the back of my notebook some stupid things about him. There was even a time that he accused me of taking my classmate’s money. It made me mad that I really wanted to punch him on his face and cursed his name a thousand times. Since then, I never thought of befriending him.  




However, destiny had already set a plan that would eventually change my whole life. It was time for our Biology class, we were asked to be in the Laboratory room. All of a sudden my head started to ache. So I decided to stay in our room. I was alone, sitting and covering my face with my bare-hands. I sighed! I noticed someone entered the room but I did not mind looking who it was. A voice I knew asked, “Are you okay?” I replied, “If I’m okay I would be present in our Biology class. “ I know I was being rude to him but he just smiled. He sat beside me, put his soft fingers on my forehead and he gently massage it. I was shocked; I turned to him to ask “Anyway what are you doing here?” He was silent, and then he held my left hand pinching the tip of my tiny fingers. I was about to protest when he started talking; “Ssh! I think you need me now.” I was still in great shock at that time. And I also wanted to thank him. It was like seeing another part of him. He even shared to me some of his little secrets and told me about his greatest dream “to travel around the world”. And that’s how our friendship started.

He was a guy and talking to him was kind of strange. Awkward, as I used to describe it. As days went by, I discovered some things that we have in common. Because of the talks and chats we shared each day, we became best friends. 


 There are things, however, troubled me much. I did not like the way he grabs my hands or the way he laughs at me when I committed tiny mistakes. I even punch his nose when he suddenly hugs me, though the feeling was exhilarating. I did everything to ignore those things, still I did not comprehend why it made me so scared yet so alive. 


 If there is one thing I should be afraid of, it would be falling in love with my best friend. I already noticed that my feelings for him were slowly changing. I started thinking of him late at night and dreaming of him beside me. I know it wasn’t just a simple crush. I know it was something different, something that I never felt before, something so inevitable, a thing they call LOVE. 


 Hiding the feeling I had for him was not an easy task and denying the fact that I love him was another cumbrous job. It scares me to death to let him know. And though it’s breaking my heart into pieces, it’s okay. Keeping this unwanted feeling is a way better than losing him.

For a year, I managed to keep my feelings for him thinking that it would make me stay close to him. I may sound so desperate, silly and stupid too. I never thought keeping a secret over a year could bring so much agony. 


 The following months were some of the darkest parts of my life. He joined a Hip-Hop dance Competition which was the reason of our seldom talk. Because of it, he often sits beside other guys chatting about the practice they had. If only he knew how much I missed him. I felt so hopeless and I couldn’t contain the ache coming from my lonely heart. All I can do is to let my tears fall. 


 It was one fateful afternoon when I arrived home and saw him sitting in our terrace waiting for me. I was perplexed, I went up to him and asked “Yes?” I wanted to ask him so many things but I couldn’t find the right words. He just smiled and gave me a ticket for tomorrow’s dance competition. “I want you to be there,” he said in a low tone then left. 


 The day of the competition came. I was wearing my purple hooded-jacket. I hopped in his car and saw a bouquet of flowers. Is it for me? I thought. It was really awkward for both of us to be silent. So I started talking, “So, what’s up?” He did not answer instead, he just stare at me. After a while he said, “Did you miss me? Hmm?” I sighed and told him, “Yeah, I miss you. I think—“ I couldn’t finish my sentence. He turned to me and said,” I want you to meet someone.” For a moment, I was afraid. 


 When we arrived at the cultural center, I thought it was a night of dreams coming true. It was a night where I can prove that fairytales do exist. I was there, I saw my prince dancing gracefully from first to finish. I hope time would freeze so that it would never end. So many things I wanted to let him know. That he was the only reason why my heart keeps on beating. That he would always be my knight in shining armor. But most of all, to let him know that I wanted to whisper in his ears that he was the only guy I loved. I dropped off all my fears and decided to confess to him about this feeling I had hidden for so long. 


Suddenly, the sparks went out, fairytales were now gone and dreams were blown away. I saw him holding his hands with a girl. They came up to me. He stared at me for a minute and told me that she was his girlfriend. Those were the most dreadful words I heard from him. I tried to open my mouth and found out that I lost my voice. I just couldn’t bear it. I pretended to be happy for both of them with a fake smile. When I arrived at home, I went to my room and cried all night. It was unbearable for me to know that he is now owned by another girl. I could feel my aching heart screaming and shouting. A feeling I couldn’t describe. The pain was like falling from a cliff for the first time. 


 Two days passed by, I was walking down the hallway when I saw him hugging her. It felt like someone was squeezing my heart. How I wish I was that girl. The one that would be holding his hands, the one that would be receiving those red roses and sweet chocolates, but even in my dreams it’s far impossible. When I passed by them I just smiled without looking because I was afraid he might see through the corner of my eyes the pain I felt. I tried my best to hide my strong feeling of jealousy. 


 Then time came when I decided to start avoiding him, ignoring his phone calls and text messages. Every time he would approach me I pretended to be doing something. I would not see him whenever he visits in my house. It was very difficult doing those things. Those months were tormenting but then it was the only option I had. 


 The last day of school came. I planned of transferring into another school. At that moment there was only one thing on my mind – I want to forget him. 


 When another school year started I concentrated on my studies. I joined clubs and organizations in my new school. I tried to keep myself busy but I have to admit that I still think of him sometimes. And even though loving him caused me great pain and suffering, I will always be grateful for I know God has a purpose for all of this. I will always cherish the day I started loving him for I learned some of life’s greatest lessons. 


 It has been five years, and I will no longer wait for him nor hope for his love but I would still be here to continue loving him in silence. 

An Interview with Mr. and Ms. Intrams

Andres Bonifacio College is not just an academe of excellence but also a place of mortals bestowed with beauty and intelligence.
Looking back last September 2010, Marc Karlo Cerna and Salem Malicay, both from the College of Arts and Sciences, were hailed as Mr. and Ms. ABC Intrams 2010. Somehow considered as school icins, the Bonifacio Standard believed it is about time to flip some pages of their lives.
Fast facts
Marc Karlo Cerna or “Machang”, as he was fondly called by his friends and colleages, was a 3rd Year BS Computer Science student. However, he kept his birth date secret to us (Hmm? Why is that is so?). He loves to play basketball and is also into singing and dancing. And he believes that if there’s a will there’s a way.
On November 17, 1992, Salem Malicay was born, a true manifestation of beauty and brains. She was the daughter of Mr. and Mrs. Alex Malicay. She was taking up Bachelor of Arts Major in Political Science. Despite having a hectic schedule, she still manages to do some of her favorite hobbies such as listening to music and reading books.
Unknown to some, Salem already joined a lot of beauty pageants and modeling competitions before she was crowned as ABC’s Ms. Intrams 2010.
Getting to know them up-close
It was really fun getting to know these people. And just like any other students, both of them also have dreams and future plans.
“Of course, I wanted to finish my studies then get a stable job. I wanted to work in the field of animation. Syempre, ganahan sad ko nindot akong kahimtang in the future,” Marc said.
But what he shared to us was just a chunk of his whole pineapple story. Of course, a lot of girls out there might be wondering about his lovelife. Unfortunately, our good guy here, Marc is no longer available.
“She’s the best thing ever happened to me,” he said with sincerity when asked to describe his special someone.
On the other side, Salem, a simple woman with full of ambitions also has an interesting stories to tell. Her dream is to become a successful lawyer in the future. She also confessed that she’s single in the moment.
“Tall, intelligent and God-fearing. Haha,” she said with a laugh after being asked about her ideal guy.
She also shared her inspiration in joining beauty pageants. “My Mom, I want her to be proud of me.”


As Mr. and Ms. Intrams
Bringing the title Mr. and Ms. Intrams is not an easy task. With it comes a great responsibility. Both of them admitted that a few changes occurred in some aspects of their lives.
“I taught myself how to dressed up and I’ve become more responsible. I take care of my image to avoid criticisms and gossips,” Salem related.
“I want students to see me as a person who loved to play sports, especially basketball and someone who doesn’t have any vices,” Marc added.
He also confessed his feelings after being hailed as Mr. Intrams that night. “Well, I’m happy not just for myself but also to my department, College of Arts and Sciences, for their support wasn’t wasted. I’ll grab this opportunity to thank all the teachers who supported me, especially Sir Richie.”
These two told us that they never expected to win: first, because other contestants were really good and second, Marc was a newbie, it was his first time joining such competitions.
On giving advices
“Show your skills and talents, don’t be shy and just be who you are,” Salem said. For her, skills, talents and being herself were the reasons she won the pageant that night.
“Gusto naku iingon sa ilaa nga magpaka-good sila then try not to disgrace the name of our school,” Marc concluded.
Surely, these two people will continue to inspire more students in this institution. And encourage them in bringing honor to their respective departments. They have proven as well, that being Mr. and Ms. Intrams is not about getting popular but rather something about knowing your capabilities and responsibilities as a student and as a citizen.


(all thanks to Mr. Carlo cerna and Ms. Salem Malicay, i'm supposed to published this on last sem's BS issue but due to some problems, i failed to put this on print, sayang naman din kc kung hindi ma-view yung sinulat ko....)

The Lying Down Game

Have you heard the latest trend that caught the attention of many Filipinos? If not then let me be the one to tell you. It’s really easy; you just have to stretch out your body, arms to your side, find an unusual place, take a photo of yourself and post it on Facebook or any social networking sites. This new craze is the so-called “planking” or the lying down game.

Looking into its history

A comedian named Tom Green () claimed to have invented “planking” in 1994. But other accounts said that it originated in London on 1997. While the other one, in Northeast England in 2000. The origin of this fad might not be clear to many fanatics, but that doesn’t matter anymore. For it has gained popularity in many countries.

When it spread all over the globe, it has also been called as “Shi Che Nori” or playing dead in South Korea, “a plat ventre” or one’s belly in France, “facedown” in U.S.A. and Ireland, “planking ” in Australia, New Zealand, Philippines and the rest of the world.

Philippine trend

It was early 2011 when “planking” hits the Philippines. Many already did photograph themselves in some unusual locations such as roofs, stairs, atop poles, vehicles and even in roads.

In fact, there was a facebook page devoted to “planking” called Planking Pinas. Many already joined the page and it gained more than 33,000 “likes” from a lot of Fillipinos. Filipino “plankers” posted their own planking style photo on the wall of this page. Planking Pinas, however, made it clear to its members to always be responsible when doing planking. They promoted “PLANK SAFE” to each of their members.

This fad doesn’t only captivated common people, but also some Filipino celebrities. Actress Lauren Young and fashion icon Liz Uy tweeted a photo of their own doing the signature planking pose (planking in the stairs).

“Planking” was also used as a means of protests and rallies. On July 19, 2011, a number of students in the Philippines took the streets and planked. Because of President Aquino’s proposed budget cuts in universities and colleges they organized “Mass Planking For Our Right to Education”. They demanded from President Aquino to allocate a higher budget for education, a few days before his State of the Nation Address.

A self-expression

While others thought “planking” was a self-expression, many Filipinos are doing it only because people from the rest of the world are doing it. Some high-profile “plankers” include Justin Beiber, Chris Brown, Max Key (son of New Zealand’s Prime Minister), etc. This also triggers some individuals to “plank”.

Let’s take from Sheena, an Accountancy student, who admits she’s a fan of this fad. “So I can have cool photos on my facebook,” she said when asked on her purpose of doing planking.

“Lingaw-lingaw,” said by another “planker” named Mandel.

But for RR, it is one way of expressing himself. Because of having nothing to do aside from studying, he “planks” to tell others that he’s craving for something new.

Unfortunate plankers

Many might be doing “planking” to have a cool profile photo on facebook or just doing it for fun. But the fact is that, once a person posted his own planking pose and many seemed to like it, this will give him a sense of recognition.

However, not all plankers were fortunate enough. A 20-year-old guy in Brisbane,Australia embraced his own death after trying a planking stunt in a seven-storey Brisbane apartment. It was believed to be Australia’s first planking fatality. One was also arrested in Australia after planking on a police vehicle without asking permission to the cops. In England, doctors and nurses in a certain hospital were suspended after “planking” while on duty.

Nobody really knows what the exact purpose of planking was. But still, it gained a lot of popularity in the rest of the world. Now, it continued to spread in the Philippines and is starting to be recognized by some here in Dipolog. Just so you know if you tried “planking” make sure to be responsible and never cross the line. Ű




(Writer’s Note: Thank you so much google, without you I can’t acquire all these informaions!)

A Talk with Miss Kimberly Anne Amatong

Andres Bonifacio College was recognized as the “Powerhouse of Beauty”. It was after four young ladies consecutively wore the crown of Miss Teen Tourism for five years.
And now, another young lady from the same school by the name of Kimberly Anne Amatong is determined to face all the odds just to win again the crown of Miss Teen Tourism 2011.
She was the daughter of Mr. Armand Amatong and Mrs. Jocelyn Barbara Amatong. She started joining pageants when she was still four years old. In her freshman years in high school, she was crowned as ABC’s Ms. Interclas, ABC High School Dept.’s counterpart of Ms. Intrams. Now, at fifteen years old, she’s eager to face other beautiful ladies in the city for the most coveted title, Miss Teen Tourism 2011.
But before she goes to compete in the said pageant, we were lucky to be entertained by her through a short text conversation.
How will you describe yourself?
Kim: I’m a very sensitive person. I’m responsible, loving and I had this street smart-trait that I got from my mom and dad. I’m also outgoing and I really like socializing with other people.
What is your definition of the word ‘Beauty’?
Kim: For me, beauty is the harmony of one’s body, mind and spirit.
How does it feel to be chosen as ABC’s representative in Miss Teen Tourism 2011?
Kim: Of course, it’s overwhelming. And I’m very proud of myself because there are a lot of beautiful ladies here in ABC but still, they picked me to represent our school it really was an honor.
Is there any pressure felt knowing that ABC has been a constant winner in this prestigious pageant?
Kim: Honestly, I don’t feel any pressure instead it serves as my inspiration. It’s hard, but I will do my best to aim for the crown.
Are you confident enough to win the pageant?
Kim: I want to be positive about it. I hope so. I know I can do it, let’s just hope and pray.
What are your preparations for the Miss Teen Tourism?
Kim: I’m preparing for the pageant walk and I also practice building confidence.
What do you think is your advantage among other contestants?
Kim: I think it’s how I handle my confidence. I mean, I know how to use it at the right time. I don’t want to be labeled as O.A. or something.
Surely in your situation right now you encounter gossips and criticisms, how do you handle those things?
Kim: I don’t mind those negative comments and I respond to constructive criticisms, especially if it will help me to become a better person.
What lesson did you learn in joining such pageant?
Kim: Staying true to yourself. And just ignore other people if they talk negative things about you. I also learn to carry my pride and dignity with confidence and humility.
What do you want to say to all your supporters?
Kim: I would like to thank them all; they as well serve my inspiration. They’ve given me strength and confidence. I will really do my best to get the crown. And let’s leave everything to God. And I hope to see them all in the coronation night.
Indeed, this young lady is a true beauty queen in her own little way. She’s not just any pretty face, but a lady which symbolizes confidence, dignity and humility.
So this coming October 5, let’s all flock to the Dipolog City Sports Complex and support our bet, Ms. Kimberly Anne Amatong for Miss Teen Tourism 2011.


(Writer’s Note: I would like to thank Ms. Cristen Mae Cordova for providing me Kimberly’s mobile number. Also many thanks to Ms. Kimberly, for her time.)

experience daw?

i often dream of the same dream. i am looking at someone whom i have known for the past three years. my tears were falling while he's walking away and slowly fades into nothingness.

it was nightmare. a nightmare that haunts me over and over again.

for almost four years, i haven't seen him yet i always remember him every ticking of the clock. you might wonder why, but i'm sorry, i can't even answer that question on my own. he was a high school friend and at the same time the only guy i had loved this much. i know i sounded silly for having a crush on a guy for almost four years.

i could still remember the day i started liking him. he was jut sitting beside me when an unusual feeling started to rise inside of me while staring into his hazel brown eyes. he was smiling back at me then. i denied the awkward feelings at first. but everytime he talks to me, everytime he calls my name and every time he stares into me i just can't help myself falling into him.

it was never my intention to fall in love with my best guy pal, that is why i started to build walls between us. it hurts, but i know more of pain than to stay right beside him. i know all the way that it would be a one-sided love story. but you can't blame me or him, because even if he had the same feelings for me, it still wont work that way.

it was a relief in my part knowing he will be transferring to another school for the next school year, it will bought me some time to heal the wounds he left in me.

but ironically, instead of forgetting him , my love for him only grew stronger. i can't comprehend why this is happening to me. some friends would say it's true love, (of course i don't believe them). some say it's just part of growing up,it will pass (blessed them!).

so to cut the story short, up to know i still have this feelings for him. but i never hope nor expected that he will be giving my love back. but you know what, though i have suffered for many years, i never regretted those times i cried just because of wanting to forget him. those sleepless nights of too much thinking of him. i will always treasure those moments. because of it, i became stronger and even more careful in life.

i'm just happy knowing he's making his way fulfilling his dreams.

my life would still go on. without him or not, loving him or not, life gets to move forward!:)

Seminar sa News Writing ug Radio Broadcasting gipahigayon

Usa ka seminar ang gipahigayon sa mga estudyante sa MassComm. sa Andres Bonifacio College nga adunay temang "The Role of News Writing and Radio Broadcasting in Shaping Future Mediamen" karun lamang adlawa, Oktubre 1 ning tuiga.

Ang maong guestspeaker sa seminar mao silang Mrs. Rosemarie P. Miranda sa City Civil Registrar ug si Mr. Jett C. Opilac sa DXAA.

Kini giapilan sa mga MassComm. students gikan 1st year hangtud 4th year, estudyante sa sekondarya ug mga staff sa Bonifacio Standard.

Apan daku ang pasalamat sa mga MassComm. students nga nagpahigiyon aning maong aktibidades sa mga estudyanteng mitambong sa maong kalihokan.

Si Ms. Alma Albaño usab nagpasalamat ug mi-abiba sa mga 1st year ug 2nd year MassComm. students nga mangandam kay puhon sila napud ang magpahigiyon ug ing-aning klase nga aktibidad.

Mahidumduman nato nga sa miaging tuig nagpahigayon sab ang mga Mass Comm. students ug seminar.

MassComm. Society holds seminar

The ABCollege Mass Communication students who are enrolled in the subjects MC 311(News Writing) and MC 312(Radio and TV Reporting)conducted a seminar with the theme "The Role Of News Writing and Radio Broadcasting in Shaping Future Mediamen" last October 1, 2011.

The speakers were Mrs. Rosemarie P. Miranda of City Civil Registrar, who shared her knowledge about News Writing in Cebuano and Mr. Jett C. Opilac of DXAA, who also talk about Radio Broadcasting.

The seminar was attended by MassComm. students and high school students of Andres Bonifacio College as well as the Bonifacio Standard staff.

This was the second time the MassComm. students under the said subjects conducted a seminar.

On the otherhand, Ms. Alma Albaño, MassComm. instructor encouraged the 1st year and 2nd MassComm. students to prepare for they will be the next one to conduct such activity if ever she'll remain instructor for the coming years.